Well I figure I'll just whine and complain in this. Since Brittany is MUCH too busy talking to Colon, to listen to how shitty I feel. Since he is SO much more important than me. And so MUCH greater than me. Like how he annoys her all the time, and tells he what she is and isn't. And is so amazingly immature. The kid is a fucking retard, and that's the God's Honest Truth. He has not idea how to handle a relationship. He's making so many mistakes it's pathetic. How the kid could even keep a girlfriend for a week is beyond me.
But no, Brittany would rather talk to him, than me. Because he's her new best friend, and I don't mean shit. And whatever they talk about, well that's not even any of my business. Because Brittany's too COOL to tell me secrets now. They all go to COLON. THE AMAZING WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND WHO SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT EVERY OTHER FIVE MINUTES.
Yeah, I'm jealous of the kid. I admit it. I don't even care. I hate him, I hope he jumps off a bridge and dies. I hope he never looks at me, and I never look at him. I never want to see him, or any other of Brittany's friends again. All the do is insult me, make fun of me behind my back, and are mean to me. And then they apologize for it, so they can see Brittany. It's bullshit, all of it. And I can only wait for school to start again, so I can make my own friends, and not have to rely on Brittany's for entertainment. Because trust me, that's the ONLY reason I put up with them. So I can see Brittany. But since we're not best friends anymore, since, COLON has taken my place. Well then, I guess I won't have to do that anymore won't I?
And Goddamn Brittany I hope you read this and know how shitty you made me feel. And I am crying my eyes out right now. And I just want you to know that and hope to GOD you care. Because I would NEVER choose a guy over you. NEVER. I never even chose Brenda over you. She was just another friend. Fuck it. I'm sick of thinking about this shit. And I am sick of your friends making me feel terrible. I thought I was over my depression. But nope! Guess not! Some people just seem to bring it out all the more. CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE! Alex wants to slit her wrists again! Come on, Call her fat some more. Maybe this time she'll actually do it. No wait, she's pretending she doesn't care. Let's insult her even more. Oh no, wait, Brittany is getting mad. Quick! Apologize! We'll just laugh about her behind her back.