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Every Night I Fall From Grace.

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3 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[28 Jul 2005|10:27pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Well I figure I'll just whine and complain in this. Since Brittany is MUCH too busy talking to Colon, to listen to how shitty I feel. Since he is SO much more important than me. And so MUCH greater than me. Like how he annoys her all the time, and tells he what she is and isn't. And is so amazingly immature. The kid is a fucking retard, and that's the God's Honest Truth. He has not idea how to handle a relationship. He's making so many mistakes it's pathetic. How the kid could even keep a girlfriend for a week is beyond me.
But no, Brittany would rather talk to him, than me. Because he's her new best friend, and I don't mean shit. And whatever they talk about, well that's not even any of my business. Because Brittany's too COOL to tell me secrets now. They all go to COLON. THE AMAZING WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND WHO SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT EVERY OTHER FIVE MINUTES.
Yeah, I'm jealous of the kid. I admit it. I don't even care. I hate him, I hope he jumps off a bridge and dies. I hope he never looks at me, and I never look at him. I never want to see him, or any other of Brittany's friends again. All the do is insult me, make fun of me behind my back, and are mean to me. And then they apologize for it, so they can see Brittany. It's bullshit, all of it. And I can only wait for school to start again, so I can make my own friends, and not have to rely on Brittany's for entertainment. Because trust me, that's the ONLY reason I put up with them. So I can see Brittany. But since we're not best friends anymore, since, COLON has taken my place. Well then, I guess I won't have to do that anymore won't I?
And Goddamn Brittany I hope you read this and know how shitty you made me feel. And I am crying my eyes out right now. And I just want you to know that and hope to GOD you care. Because I would NEVER choose a guy over you. NEVER. I never even chose Brenda over you. She was just another friend. Fuck it. I'm sick of thinking about this shit. And I am sick of your friends making me feel terrible. I thought I was over my depression. But nope! Guess not! Some people just seem to bring it out all the more. CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE! Alex wants to slit her wrists again! Come on, Call her fat some more. Maybe this time she'll actually do it. No wait, she's pretending she doesn't care. Let's insult her even more. Oh no, wait, Brittany is getting mad. Quick! Apologize! We'll just laugh about her behind her back.

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[26 Jun 2005|05:03am]
[ mood | excited ]

So yeah, I had a good night and day. Oh, I don't know what happened the last time I wrote in this. -checks- Kai. Me and Josh went out.. For eh, two months and 5 days. But then I dumped him. But I love him so kai. But anyways, onto my good day/night. Me and JOsh and Brenda and Skot came down to Huber and we chilled at my grandma's. It was awesome. Well me and Josh laid in this really fuckin comfy recliner for most of the night. And then we all went to the carnival. And I rode this spinny ride and felt sick. And Brenda and Skot went and got pictures of them done as them being pirates and it was cute. But anyways, I felt sick so me and Josh walked back to the house and watched Family Feud. And we soo had better answers then the dumb fucks on TV. But then Skot and Brenda finally found their way back to my house. My grandma was off somewhere fuckin doin somethin. But yeah, so we watched Underworld and shit. I fell asleep on Josh for like a half an hour. While Skot and Brenda effin desecrated my couch. YEAH THEY HAD SEX! Haha, I wrote that cuz Brenda told me not to. It's cool, I had my fun. And now I have shit all over my shirt. -glare- Damn messy people, seriously. Josh will get it for that. My poor MCR shirt! -pets it lovingly- It's okay hun, he got some on him too. Haha, but anyways. So yeah, I had the greatest night evurr. Well it was the best night I have had since June 7th. ( When me and Josh broked up. ) Haha. Omfg. It was soooo fuckin funny tho. My grandma walks in on the middle of it and she's like Alex... And I just held up a finger real quick like. Cause I thought it was Brenda. ( I wasn't told this until after it was all over. ) And I guess she just walked outta the room real quick. And then she walks in and I am all talking to her while redoing my belt. And I realized it and turned around real quick. -rolls eyes- And then I starting yelling about my shirt. Noo, I don't know why the bottom of my shirt is white.. I am so obvious. But she didn't say shit. And she was talking about vibrators in the car so she BETTER not even curr dude. If she does, Well she was the one who invited him, and it's not MY fault I am a horny teenager. Oh and then JOsh walks out and shakes my brother's hand. I was... omg no you just didn't. I started fucking cracking up and my brother all looks at his hand, and then gives me a weird look. Stupid naive 11 year olds, dude. It was too funny tho. Well I am off to smoke this ciggerette Josh was so sweet to have given me. I love him so much.

I shall update again in a month.

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[28 Mar 2005|01:26pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

I love I only update this every 3 months.
I was reading back through my entries.
I go through sooo many guys.
Me and Josh are getting ready to go back out.
I'm in Tennessee on Spring Break.
So I will be on this alot more, for this week, at least.
Even though no one reads this.
But oh well.
I need to change my layout.
So I shall be doing that now.
See ya lata, y'all.

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[09 Nov 2004|03:02pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

-yawn- Bored. Bored.
Some little girl just dragged me halfway across the library to show me a fire.
...I was like.. Okay?
She's like announcing it to half the population of Franklin.
Doesn't look very serious to me.
But to the little girl, oh let me tell you.
Biggest thing she has seen all week.

Well my modem is down so now I can't even get online at my grandparents.
-shrug- I need to get a new library card.
Wish I had an ID.
Kim said a need to find a job.
Wish my birthday would hurry up so I could turn 16.

I get to see Thomas again on Thursday.
-swoon- Dan said he would be at his house.
And I am going over there.
Not sure why, he said we should hang out.
Then I am staying at Candace's.
So we can cook.

And Dan said he would get me my book.
Ultimate Gay Sex.
Hopefully Thomas will come along as well.
-squeal- So I also have that to look forward to.
We're prolly going this weekend.
Hopefully I can save my money 'till then.
Woot! I wanna work at PacSun.
Candace should work there with me. -nod-
We're gonna get a job together.
Gotta go. See ya kids.

1 bird if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[12 Oct 2004|06:13pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Wow. Alex is updating, again.
So amazing.
No one reads this, anyways.
But oh well, I'm bored.

Like my new layout?
Laurell's new book came out a few weeks ago.
I gots it signed, woo!
Go me go.

I'm reading Stephen King now.
Working on the Stand.
ALready finished IT.
Dre's reading it now.
We're racing each other.
I'm so gonna win.

My mom's MIA, again.
-rolls eyes- Why am I not suprised?
I keep telling her, over and over again.
Dump your damn girlfriend.
Does she listen?

I gotta go, I need to buy shit for this dumbass Biology project.
Which I do NOT want to do.

3 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[22 Sep 2004|06:37pm]

THE CUTEST PICTURE EVURR. Omg I love it. I have it on my headboard. -nod-
Read more...Collapse )

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[22 Sep 2004|09:07am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Hey. Actually updating again.
Now don't fall over and die yet.
Read meh entry first.
-yawn- Anyways. Umm.. not much has happened.
Actually, nothing has happened.
Ohmigod. Tonight, I am so posting like 4753987583 pictures of Reeves on here.
He wanted me to pay 5 dollars for it.
But Brenda gave it to me for free.
Sh, don't tell.
And then this guy took a bunch and put them on his webpage.
Oh yeah, I have a vampirefreaks profile now.
I'll give you a link later. I don't have time now, class is almost over.
Umm.. Homecoming is the ninth, which is in like a 2 and a half weeks, maybe?
Well that's what Shep said, anyways.
But then, who can trust him?
Not sure who I'm going with..
Like 20 people told Reeves to go with me, but I don't think he's going.
-shrug- I'll prolly go with Kait. Which is cool because she is soo getting me a corsage. A pretty one, too.
OMG! THERE ARE SO CLOWNS IN THE SEWERS! Shep saw one! -reading IT- So, watch out. And stay away from drains, sewers, canals, and circuses. -nod!- Do YOU WANT TO DIE?!
Course not. Well, I have to be going now.
Tonight: pictures of Reeves.
See ya then.

4 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[31 Aug 2004|06:30pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Hey Hey Heeey.
Yeah, Brenda dragged me over to Reeves.
We had a conversation! Woo!
But now I think he is gonna get with Candace Akers. Eck.
He went to the prom with her and Josh (her brother) said they dated before.
Hah. He prolly thinks I am a stalker freak, anyways.
Which I am so.. Yeah.
Heh. Tomorrow he is gonna play Eruption! -drool-
God I love guitar.
But I might not be there to hear it. -cry-
So I am trying to decide between skipping practice and hanging out with my friends.
Not skipping it and orgasming over Reeves for an hour.
Oh decisions.

Yup. Sittin here in the library again. Woo. Woo.
Had to check out HP5. Since Britt still has my copy.
And Quidditch Through The Ages, since I am writing a paragrapd on How To Play Quidditch.
OMG! I think I am over Tom Felton.. How crazy is this!? I know, pretty goddamn crazy.
It seems Reeves has taken his place though.
Poor Reeves. I kinda feel sorry for the guy. Having to deal with me staring at him, talking about him, thinking about him, all the time.
But Oh well, he can deal.
He's a senior anyways. So only one year of this and he's free.
And then I can move on to some other unsuspecting insanely hot guy.
That hopefully plays the guitar.
But no one can play as well as Reeves.
No. One.
Over and out.
I might, if I can get a good one, scan a pic of Reeves for ya.
The only ones I have now are him in a dress. ( Band Camp Drag Night. )

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[28 Aug 2004|02:47am]
[ mood | sick ]

Wow. Two updates in one day.
Well technically it's tomorrow, since it's past midnight, but whatever.
Sooo. First football game tonight. AND I'm ungrounded.
Wooo, go football go. So yeah, Cindy and Brana decided to take it upon themselves to talk to Brandon, for me.
We were supossed to go to the movies tonight, so they sorta asked him out, for me. Without my knowledge. God I wish people would stop embaressing me with him
And they yelled at me for not talking to him!
I'm a shy person in the first place. After that, I coulnd't go near the guy.

But yeah. Cindy told him to talk to me. But I think he's shy too.
So tomorrow, I am gonna work up ALL my courage. And strike up a conversation.
How hard can it be?
He said I was cute. -grin- Hah. At least, that's what Cindy said.
I don't believe.. really.
Got 10 bucks off Josh. He thinks I am payin him back.
He wishes.
Bought McDonalds with it.
Yuuummy. God I feel sea sick. Wtf?! I havn't been on the sea in forever.
I'm such a loser.
We have Tag Day tomorrow. I hope Brandon will be there.
I'm not sure though. Cause he said he had work.
And that's why he couldn't go to the movies.
Yup. -nod- Cindy's so crazy.
Her and Loren broke up. -pet the Cindy-
He's not that great anyways.
Well I need to talk my contacts out before I die.
See ya'll laters.

2 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[27 Aug 2004|08:44am]
[ mood | bored ]

Sorry about the lack of update.
School's just started.
Actually, it's where I am now.

Er, not much news.
Me and Josh broke up.
Or did I even say that me and Josh went out?
I can't remember. Oh well.
We aren't anymore, anyways.

Me and Tony are going out now.
But I don't see that lasting long.
So now, guess what.
I'm back on Brandon Reeves.

Erg. Duckett is about to tell us to get off the computers.
Grrrr on her.
I'll update more later.
See you all.

if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[09 Aug 2004|09:09am]
[ mood | giggly ]

Hm, havn't been on lately. Sorreh.
Actually I've been at my dad's alot.
Dad's house = no internet.
So I am chillin at the library.

Hah. Well, I'm not single no mores.
Go me go. Going out with Josh.
I've known him since like, eighth grade.
Liked him since eighth grade.
Just now going out with him.
Ah well, better late than never.

Brenda's dating his brother.
Brenda = best friend.
Awkward, kinda.
She was dating his other brother.
Looks as though she's going through the family.
She better stay away from Josh.
Hehe. Just kidding.
They are like brother and sister anyways.

Well my stepmom got this woman to run me and my brother around.
So we aren't bored during the week.
My grandma is out of town so I can't go over there no mores.
Wish they would just let me stay at home.
So I can sleep.
Maybe invite Josh over.
Heh. Did it the other day, anyways.
They're stupid, really.
Here Alex, we'll be gone till 1AM, you stay home alone.
Honestly. Did they really think I was gonna be good?
Well, I gotta get off here.
Talk to you kids later.

4 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[02 Aug 2004|12:07pm]
[ mood | in love ]

Yeah, so I'm back from Band Camp.
It was fun.
Seems we have a new guitarist.
He is amazing.
I am in love.
His name is Brandon.
He can play the guitar with his teeth.
And tongue.
I am supossed to be getting his number for my friend, next practice. Heh.

I'm at my friends grandma's.
And I hate this keyboard.
Hm, nothing much more to say.
Aw, I don't have a viewing pleasure. I'll post one later today, promise.

1 bird if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[25 Jul 2004|02:49am]
[ mood | wired ]

Leavin for band camp tomorrow.
Muahaha. Gonna have FUN.
Can't wait, actually.
Puttin up HP shit everywhere!
And I am prolly gonna be on a sugar rush for most of the week.
People, beware.

HP Survey I took out of boredom.Collapse )

6 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[24 Jul 2004|02:41pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I have been lured awake by Subway.
Dammit. That's not supossed to work.
So now I am gonna fall asleep later.
Which sucks ass.

Hm. Me and Skot got into another fight last night.
He seems to think you can be Straight Edge and drink alcohol.
AND smoke ciggerettes.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I don't think you can.

I'm off the soup.
You can still tell me your fav though.
If you want.

Band Camp next week. ( Make fun and die. )
I'm not in band, Guard.
Yeah, I'm excited.
Band Camp is fuuuun.
Olivia is printing out HP picture to put on our doors.
Haha. We be representin.

And now, for your viewing pleasure:

The OTHER love of my life. Collapse )

3 birds if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

[20 Jul 2004|07:42am]
[ mood | giggly ]

Updating again.
Woo. I am always updating when I am sleep deprived.
Or slaphappy. So I apologize.
For my not making any sense whatsoever.
One of these days I will make a real post.

My new obsession is soup.
My favorite soup is Tomato.
With Oyster Crackers.
What's yours?
Soup is <3333.

And for your viewing pleasure.

The kind of thing that is funny only to me at 4AM.Collapse )

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